I sell Rodan and Fields and one of the first things you are told as a consultant is to share your why. That has been so very hard for me because I signed up to help my mom and get great skin in the process. I had no spectacular “why”. I love the story of the single mother who signed up with her last $400 (on her credit card) and made 6 digits in her first year. It does happen but my husband and I went through financial hardships while he was in the Army. We struggled, HARD, but on this side of the Army life has proven a little easier. We are not wealthy but of the first time in our life we are comfortable. Kelly is home 98% of the time and we have real family time. So making my fortune with a skincare company was not my priority but enjoying this phase of our life.
My mom has always said that God will not give you more than you can handle. What she never told me is that he will give you enough to put you on your knees begging for his help. Looking back things started really getting hard when I was in nursing school. Kelly got sick and was medically retired. I thought I was going to have to take care of everything. He wasn’t able to walk much less work and now everything was on me to finish nursing school. As Kelly started getting better Eryn started fighting battles that only she would be able to explain. Her struggles of being a young teenage girl started manifesting in physical symptoms. With Kelly being sick Eryn never really talked to us about her troubles at school and with her friends. She was told by a specialist that she would be blind by the time she was 21, she may MS and of course cancer was thrown in there at one point. I remember pulling into my garage one afternoon while no one was home, closed the garage, turned the car off and screamed. Not an aimless scream of pain. A very dear friend told me God is a big boy and could handle me being mad at him. I was MAD. I never lost my love for God but I was furious. Why did things have to get this hard RIGHT now! I’m almost done with nursing school and all i wanted was to make my family proud and help financially support our family. I wanted to work for our childrens future. One where they would live happily ever after and none of this was in my plan. God was screwing everything up. I just wanted normal.
Turned out Eryn was physically fine but had been the victim of severe bullying that would forever change her life. After nursing school we moved to WA and everything should have been perfect. I would get a job, hello nursing shortage, Kelly had a good job and was better, Eryn could start over with new friends and Tyler, well, my sweet Tyler was hanging on living and loving life, I hope.
I have spent my entire lifetime worrying about everyone else and how to make everyone else happy. Everything that has gone wrong I have put on my shoulders. Even the things I had no control over. Something bad would happen and I would think what did I do to bring this pain into my family. That was the most self absorbed I have ever been in my life. Sometimes crap just happens and you have to decide what you will learn from this life event. As I said before, Eryn’s struggles in middle school resulted in some serious issues that we are still dealing with as a family. Kelly still has days that I worry if he is getting sick again. Will we grow old together and do all the things we have talked about over the years? What does my future look like?
My why is ME. I want to be the best version of me not only for myself and to enjoy this beautiful life God has helped me navigate; but to be better for them. If I am better for me then I WILL be better for my family. I recently discovered my love language is words of affirmation, I have a strong personality, I am an introvert and I want to be heard. This is a very difficult combination of characteristics not only for me but my sweet husband to navigate.
Why am I a nurse? I needed to contribute financially to our family and I LOVE helping birth babies!!
Why do I work out? Because I want to run after my grand babies one day. I want to put on my clothes and feel confident. I want to feel good. AND ENDORPHINS!
Why do I sell Rodan and Fields? Because it affords me the opportunity to be a part of a team of women whom I admire. It gives me play money. It gives me amazing skin for free. It gives me room to grow.
Why did I turn off the car in the garage? I still don’t know but it crossed my mind to leave it running and test God. You heal my family or I die here and now. The pain of continuing in this life out weighed the pain of not seeing it through. I want to see where this life goes. So far I am impressed. The valleys have been lower than what many will ever know but thanks to my amazingly wonderful God the mountain peaks have been glorious.
Misty Better Everyday 