I’m rewriting this because the first version upset many people so I decided to take a different approach. Prior to my last blog post I had maybe 2 reads. In all reality I did not think anyone would read but my mom. It was therapy for me to type it out not meant to hurt. If my words hurt you I apologize.
Hate is a strong word. We should not hate anyone. If we all lived a life where we choose to forgive and move on then perhaps happiness would be within reach. It’s no secret to anyone I’m not the favorite person on my husband’s side of the family. This doesn’t mean they are bad people. Perhaps they just don’t understand me and how/why I live my life the way I do.
Nineteen years of marriage has provided many opportunities to grow and nurture a relationship but there has to be action on both sides for this to happen. Hindsight always provides a clearer picture.
My husband doesn’t understand why I write these blogs but it really is a source of therapy for me and I hope that this ends up in the hands of someone that needs my words. How will I deal with those non fans? Well, I’m afraid sometimes the reality that someone just doesn’t like you has to be accepted and you have to move forward with life. I recently read a book that asked a question “What would great look like?” (No Ego).
My great would mean others would have to act and I can’t let that hold me back. MY great has to be me getting up and going to the gym tomorrow. My great will be me opening my Facebook back up and blocking out the negativity. My great will be me being better everyday so that perhaps they will see the real me and really love me.
I hope as my journey continues I will be able to update this part of my life. But, for the foreseeable future I will leave others out of the telling of my journey unless they are agreeable. But to put it out there; I forgive those who have done me wrong over the past 40 years of my life. I plan to move forward. I refuse to stand still in this life and to dwell on the past or the negativity.
To the one person that commented on my last post. Thank you for your input. You’re right it did not provide grace. I hope this helps more than hurts.
Misty Better Everyday 