That was one of my favorite years, yet so many highs and lows. Looking back there are a few specifics that stand out the most.
- March- Eryn turned 18 and I found the strength to put myself first.
- May- 19 years of marriage and I love my husband more than ever.
- June- Learned I would survive Eryn growing up.
- August- Learned I would survive Tyler playing varsity football
- September- left Eryn way too far from home for me
- October- Kelly and Tyler both got a deer and I learned I hated being home alone
- November- THE COLD FROM HELL!!
- December- You can not skimp on Christmas just because your kids are older.
But, I’m done looking back. I’ve thought a lot about what I want to accomplish this year and there is so much that I don’t know where to start. There have been three authors who have put a spark in my step and all three together have me so confused.
It all started with Rachel Hollis convincing me I can do anything I set my mind to and I am worth so much more. Self love and self care are 2 parts of my life I now take very seriously. March is when Rachel helped me realize I have the strength to not only draw the line but deserved to be appreciated for my true self by everyone. Thank you Rachel!
Then I listened to Dave Ramsey and wanted to sell everything. He helped me understand that while I loved my Lexus, there is no reason. Simple. Unless I can pay cash for those luxuries, I dont need them. Also, there is a passage in the Bible regarding owing creditors. This year there will be less spending and more paying. Thank you Dave!!
This one is technically 2020 and I am “reading” her book. Marie Kondo got me to clean out from under my sink in the bathroom with one chapter. Seriously, last night I started her book on the way home from a 12 hour shift and in that 26 minute drive I was convinced all those samples, bottles and boxes were not bringing me joy. Excited or scared to finish the book, it will change my life for sure.
Now, what will I do with this, Marie said last night that if I declutter my home it will help settle all this movement in my head. This is where I want to start so badly but I am not a patient person. I want to have a plan I can act on NOW! Dave Hollis talked about journaling to figure things out. He took a mancation and just wrote what was in his heart. That’s kind of what I do here but i try not to be so scatter brained.
What I want… to be heard. I have a vision. I want to inspire and encourage women and young ladies. I want to inspire and encourage my daughter more than anything. I have a story and what makes it so amazing is it’s not amazing. It’s BORING, it’s normal. I am a regular gal that thought less of herself, that thought I couldn’t or shouldn’t. I don’t always have the right thing to say and I definitely say the wrong thing a lot. My opinions, beliefs and thoughts are important. I want the regular gal sitting in her living room watching Rachel Hollis to realize she doesn’t have to be that vibrant and outspoken to make a difference. I want her to find her spark, she deserves to find that spark.
What I am doing…starting with those closest. I have a Facebook page for a very special group of ladies. I want them to see how much they mean to me and they deserve to love themselves. They deserve to take time for themselves. By focusing on the whole person and directing their energy where they are the happiest. And it is OK if that happiness is not always others. I’ve heard my husband say so many times “lead by example”, so I workout, take care of myself and have found my happiness. I DO NOT use filters, I let people see my messy house, I let people see the real me (the one I hated and thought everyone else would if they saw her). My family is not perfect, I don’t believe anyone’s is. I am careful about putting other people’s life’s on here, March got me in trouble, but EVERYONE in my family has made mistakes. To the left, to the right and all over in the middle. It’s OK, their choices do not define me. Even my choices last year do not define me. They are my journey, stepping stones but do not dictate my tomorrow.
I am thankful God has provided me with this particular spark and he made me just as I am because no one could live my life better than me.
Misty Better Everyday 